Chapter 40
Huo Shu had anticipated that the ger would cry.
But he hadn’t expected it to happen even before they had properly begun…
Looking at the person lying on the bed with reddened eyes, two deep crimson bite marks on his lower lip from holding back, already sobbing to the point of breathlessness—
He hastily closed his robe, hurriedly got off the bed to pour a cup of warm water, and helped the ger sit up.
Ji Taoyu looked as if he had fallen into a water vat, drenched all over, his forehead covered in sweat.
The warm water slid down his throat, slightly soothing the soreness and rawness.
Huo Shu let him lean against his chest, gently patting his trembling shoulders in reassurance.
Only when his breathing steadied did Huo Shu ask, “Feeling better?”
Ji Taoyu sniffled, unsure whether Huo Shu was merely asking if the water had helped or if he meant to continue once he felt better.
The thought of the latter made him shiver.
Not better at all.
Yet selfishly, he thought it wasn’t Huo Shu’s fault, just that 'the act itself' was unbearable.
He pressed his lips together, wanting to ask for more time, but before he could speak, he hissed in pain—his bitten lower lip stung sharply at the slightest touch.
If they were to continue now, it would surely…
“Is it… is it supposed to be like this?”
Ji Taoyu’s voice was hoarse. At this point, he could no longer hold back, nor did he care what was appropriate to say. The question spilled from his heart: “One key opens one lock. If… if the key and the lock don’t match, then… how can it possibly work?”
Though the bed curtains were drawn and they were buried beneath the mandarin duck quilt, he hadn’t seen the exact dimensions of this key. But… upon contact, he could certainly feel it, enough to roughly gauge its size.
At this thought, his face burned again.
The keyhole is only so big. If the key is too large, of course it won’t fit. If forced, wouldn’t it just break the lock?
Back when he had secretly read those illustrated books under the covers, the depictions of tangled phoenixes and merged heavens made it seem like such a blissful, divine experience.
It had made him flush crimson, and thinking of Huo Shu’s tall, powerful frame, he had assumed: Of course it would work, no matter what. He had even swallowed nervously, feeling… a secret anticipation.
After their engagement, his nights had been filled with all sorts of indecent dreams.
Now that the moment had finally arrived, he hadn’t expected it to be like this.
Too much… isn’t good either. Those books exaggerated everything, they never mentioned this part!
His heart was both shocked and a little sad.
Huo Shu frowned at his analogy. “People and locks aren’t the same.”
“Then… then why does it hurt so much?”
Ji Taoyu hurriedly defended his reasoning, his voice trembling slightly.
Seeing this, Huo Shu couldn’t help but feel a pang of guilt. He had no choice but to admit fault. “I was too impatient.”
Then, softening his tone, he added, “Your senses are more delicate than most. It’s only natural you couldn’t handle it.”
At these words, Ji Taoyu’s eyes suddenly lowered, a faint mist gathering in them.
Huo Shu was at a loss, how did comforting him end up making him cry again?
He quickly set the cup aside and tucked Ji Taoyu back under the blankets.
Perhaps worried that the one he had finally obtained might now refuse to stay with him, Huo Shu said, “We’ve come this far. No backing out.”
Ji Taoyu looked up at him with teary eyes, nestled in Huo Shu’s arms. “I… I’m not backing out. I just… I’m afraid you’ll find me troublesome. This is supposed to be a major life event, yet we can’t even… complete it properly.”
Huo Shu tightened his arms around the soft, pliant figure. “If I were the type to find you troublesome, we wouldn’t have made it this far.”
“We’ll take it slow. No need to rush.”
The words seemed directed at Ji Taoyu, but even more like a reminder to himself.
Ji Taoyu sniffled and buried himself in Huo Shu’s embrace for a long while before suddenly lifting his head to study the man’s unreadable expression.
He wrapped his arms around Huo Shu’s neck, leaned in, and pressed a kiss to his lips, then rested his forehead against Huo Shu’s with tender affection. “You... You won’t… return me, will you?”
Huo Shu’s grip on Ji Taoyu’s slender waist tightened, an indescribable warmth stirring in his heart. “Could I even if I wanted to?”
Ji Taoyu found this response highly unsettling. Burying himself deeper into Huo Shu’s embrace, he gritted his teeth and said. “Then… let’s try again.”
Huo Shu ruffled his soft hair. “There’s no hurry. We have plenty of time.”
Ji Taoyu exhaled in relief. “You said it yourself. You… you can’t blame me if I’m no good.”
“Mn.”
Ji Taoyu nuzzled against him, thinking this man was easy to talk to.
But after a moment, he glanced up again. “Then… aren’t you uncomfortable?”
Huo Shu was about to ask what he meant when he noticed Ji Taoyu’s gaze drifting downward.
His brow twitched: This little one used to be so innocent, since when did he learn to say such things?
“Go to sleep. Don’t laze in bed tomorrow morning.”
Before Ji Taoyu could get an answer, a large hand covered his eyes.
He could only mumble, “Oh.”
Huo Shu barely slept the entire night. Having a soft little ger suddenly in his arms was… something he wasn’t used to.
But that wasn’t the main issue.
During his years guarding the border, with life and death hanging by a thread, he had rarely felt desire
But now, with this person in his embrace - skin smooth as silk, waist pliant like satin, whimpering beneath him, all those suppressed urges surged forth uncontrollably, yet with no outlet.